We are digging a hole, Stan, Josh, Maria,
and I. A hole to spend the next 4 hours
living a slow death. Death of the old
Mike and birth into a new.
This will be new to all of us. Never in my wildest dreams would I think
being put into a hole, alive, and being completely buried up till my mouth and nostrils were the only thing
exposed, .change my life forever.
Generations of indigenous experienced this
right of passage, now it was my turn. As
I lower myself willingly into this ‘ hole of life”, I call it, a pulse of
adrenalin pumped into my head, like I was about to bungee jump from the highest
bridge, but with no cord for my safety net. Now laying flat on the cool, sandy
soil my fellow Questers began to slowly cover me. Starting at my toes, then slowly moving up my
naked body, except for a bathing suit to protect my privates, every cell of my
flesh began to tingle. Breathing slow
and relaxed, the way my elders advised me to do. With each breathe the dirt and sand around me
readjusted and tightened its embrace upon my entire body. The last thing I saw was the tree limbs and
canopy of the near by pitch pines above my head and the sun to my immediate
right peaking in and out of the cotton ball looking clouds. Maria laid a bandana across my mouth and nose
to stop any dirt from getting in my way of breathing.
My mind has to be free of distraction not
worrying about my next breathe. The last
hand full of dirt were placed around my head and now my friends slowly left me
there to die my little death.
My mind needs to be clear, but it is a
tough struggle. Relax, breathe, stop
thinking about 80 pounds of dirt piled on my chest! Relax, relax…. stop it Mike. As I started to relax, I started to feel a
tickling on my stomach. What is that? It is driving me nuts. I know it’s a small bug, but it had power
over me. I can not remove it. Just let the feeling pass out of you Mike,
and it did not bother me anymore. Well,
actually, I think the bug just moved on.
All of a sudden I heard a low, muffled,
deep sound rumble. It started at my left
ear, went across my whole body to finish at my right ear. Then it happened again, only I felt it first
in my feet and it past to my head. Just
then I got really worried. It is a huge
truck coming through the forest and I am going to be squished! Then I remembered my friends were out there
in the vicinity and they would stop any truck.
What seemed like a long time went by. But I really can not be sure. You lose track of time, and it could have been
two minutes for all I know. I also could
not be sure of was this new, unexplainable but exciting sensation I was
experiencing. I just could not figure
out where my feet and hands were. Now, I
know they were still attached, but for the life of me they could have been two
feet away from my body or twenty! I felt
that I was almost melting, losing the physical sense of my body itself.
And then, the most incredible 5 minutes (
or not) of my experience began to happen.
I felt one rain drop hit my nose threw the thin bandana. It then began to sound like pork was sizzling
in a Wok. ALL AROUND ME! In front, behind, left and right, then a drop
of water hit my mouth. It was raining.
But as the ground began soaking up this
moisture, the most incredible feeling came over me. I actually felt in my body the roots from all
those pines around me begin to draw up that precious moisture. I felt it in my body and I felt it in my soul
this water being drawn through me as if I was becoming part of the soil, part
of the rain and then my felling of becoming part of the pine tree drawing up
the life force into it. I had no sense
of the physical boundary that was my body.
We are energy, we are the life force.
I feel part of things around me!
This notion came crashing into my head like a tsunami. For one second I became one with everything
around me. It only takes one second to
change a life.
Just then my friends began to unearth me
from my grave. And back in my body I
was, looking up at the canopy of pines in which I was one second earlier, a
whole new Mike.